What do you do when you realize everything you appreciated in life is gone and each new day is as painful as can be?

What do you do when you find no hope in anything, when you don't even have anybody around you and you find yourself isolated?

What do you do when the good memories and special times become painful reminders of what you'll never have again?

What happens when you don't understand prejudice, gossip, when you live your life thinking what you do matters more than what other's say but then realize it's not always the case? What happens when you don't play the game?

What do you do when you give all you have and it's just not good enough?

I can't say those are easy questions, but what I do know is that I never thought it possible for anybody to actually have a need to consider them. And when that happens, when does questions become the only important ones, then you find yourself in a world of pain with no light at the end of the tunnel.

You keep yourself busy, trying not to think, get to bed as tired as you can but can only manage a couple hours of sleep. Then you know you're going through all this so you can have the exact same thing tomorrow.

I guess what I'm trying to say is this. Hope. That is the most important part of a person's life, take that away and life becomes absurd.